I thought I would do something a little different instead of a “How to” blog post. If you’re in the UK, you’re probably just as fed up as I am and I thought I would share a lockdown diaries series.
I feel guilty when I say I’m fed up because of everything else going on in the world, but sometimes, I really just want things to go back to “normal”
Throughout my blog, I talk a lot about productivity and motivation but I myself am losing the motivation for life in lockdown. Being totally honest, the first lockdown, I was loving it. Getting to work from home, which was the first time, Lyle was off, going from seeing him a few hours at night to all the time was amazing, I had just discovered my love for blogging. I was loving it!
When the lockdown was announced in December, I didn’t really think much of it. We had got through it once, we could do it again.
I swear when January the 1st hit… the lockdown didn’t seem so amazing anymore.
I think a lot of factors played a part in my 2nd lockdown mood taking a hit.
Lyle and I had moved home over a year ago to save for moving abroad, it’s been a goal of ours since we met and decided (pre-covid) that we would move home, save everything we could and then jet off.
Of course due to all of this… it’s wasn’t going to plan. Knowing that something I had worked towards for over a year was in the hands of the government… you can see why I lost a lot of hope.
*I will create a separate post on my anxiety about moving away from the UK for good and what I believe the benefits will be.
Another factor would be redundancy. When I was sixteen, and getting into the world of work, I believed that redundancy was something I would never experience in my lifetime, how naive of me. In September 2020, I received redundancy but was lucky enough to be offered a retention contract to train my replacement.
Of course, this wasn’t ideal, but I had to take what I could get.
My contract is due to finish on the 26th of March now and I am petrified but preparing as much as I can.
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What have I done to try and change my mindset?
Mindset is everything, and I believe I’ve let the inner demons take control for too long in 2021.
A quote that has really stuck with me is “you’re the only person who can change your mindset” and it’s true.
Social media detox (Mainly Instagram)
I love social media! For my blog, its been a great help in boosting readers and building my community, but sadly social media does have a bad side.
My generation is all about Instagram. I believe Tik Tok is the new up and coming thing and will overtake Instagram, but with Instagram the point of it really is… showing the best parts of your life. Finally breaking that seal of “Instagram isn’t real” made me not really like the app anymore.
My average time on the app was around 3/4 hours a day, a lot I know but I was obsessed with it, since realizing that it all fake, my average time has dropped below 10 minutes.
**I want to note, Instagram is a very powerful tool and I love up and coming influencers because they are working extremely hard on content, but the Instagram world really isn’t for me.
Treating my blog more like a business
I have been blogging pretty much every day for just under a year and I had done it originally because I loved it, I love writing and creating and gave me a distraction from my anxiety.
Recently, my blog has given me some amazing opportunities and it’s something I want to peruse full time. Since January 2021, I have been treating my blog as a business. Meaning I invest in it, I devote every minute I can to it and it’s really helped change my mindset for a few reasons.
- I’ve never minded living in a small town, but I have since realised that stepping out the box and following a career path that’s different really bothered people. I went through a period of feeling almost embarrassed that I thought I was a blogger, but my mindset shifted when I realised the possibilities I had created for myself by becoming a blogger. Like I can actually do this!!
- I gained a sh*t ton of confidence. During school, I remember thinking English was my least favourite subject because I’m terrible at spelling and grammar. Light bulb moment, those are not the most important factors for being a blogger. My mind is filled with creative ideas and that’s what makes my blog.
Opening up to the people around me
Bottling up my feelings was a normal occurrence for me, but I want to note, I had NO IDEA I was doing it.
It wasn’t till I looked into the deeper meaning behind my outbursts, that I realised that my anxiety was controlling me.
Opening up to the people around me really helped me realise that I am not alone in the way I feel and they are there to help me when I need it. Be honest with your friends, family or partner about how you’re feeling because I’m telling you, a weight will feel lifted.
Opening up is still a new thing to me and something I will continue to work on.
Gratitude, gratitude and more gratitude
In my morning routine, I added an extra step of writing out three to five things I am grateful for from the previous day.
Focusing on the negative things that were going on in my life, made me think negatively and wasn’t helping anyone. A great technique I’ve picked up is writing out what I am grateful for.
Life after lockdown? Lockdown Diaries
It’s hard to think about what life will be like after lockdown because I don’t think it can ever go back to normal. Watching Tik Toks, I always see people talking about the come back of the roaring 20s and I can’t wait to be a part of it.
Although there are things going on with COVID, your feelings are valid and don’t feel guilty for feeling the way you do.
I still plan to move from the UK when it’s safe to do so, because COVID will not ruin my dreams, just delay them a little.
How are you handling lockdown? Let me know if you like this type of post and I can continue the lockdown diaries.
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